Life as a Middle School Teacher…

I dedicated about a month of my time as a substitute teacher at a middle school.  The very first day was filled with challenges and an overwhelming sense of stress.  I had no idea what I was getting myself into.  The days seemed to get easier yet harder at the same time.  Teaching Math and Science never crossed my mind… neither did teaching 12 year olds soon turning 13.  What was I thinking getting myself into this situation?  Is this the challenge God felt that I was 100 apable of doing?  Each day was a battle with not just the students, but the administration as well.  It was the closest hold I have ever had towards having my own classroom.  The students questioned my authority… they pushed me to my limits… yet I only shed my tears one day after school.  The support I had from other teachers was extraordinary!  The V.P. was compassionate and supportive in so many.  She was the one person that told me to, “Hang in there!”  She believed in me and questioned why I have never had a fulltime position.  She constantly reminded me of what great of a teacher I am.  She has helped me realize that it is not because of me for the reason why I been receiving calls stating “We have selected someone else for the position”. The students that respected me will forever be in my heart.  I love teaching… it is my passion!  I feel that it is my calling to help change society one student at a time.  My goal is to show the students that I am that one person who believes in them… “failure is not an option” in my classroom! 

We make decisions everyday.  We are faced with questions that constantly run through our minds in search for answers.  Is it really worth it?  My specialization is in the elementary level.  Tomorrow I will go back to what I know and embrace the experience whole heartedly.  It will guide me towards my ultimate question on my mind… will I go back on Monday for my interview?